Tuesday, May 25, 2010
Man of Signs
My blog yesterday was a bit emotional that's why I'm creating another blog to shift it to the other end.
"When we ask for a sign to God, we often wish for a burning bush or a face of God in the clouds or a chariot of flames crossing the street – we often wish for something grand... something undeniable that it overwhelms us that we cannot deny that it is indeed the sign. Something heaven delivered just for you. Something god-sent." --> from Lolo Karl's blog. ;)
Another quote that punched me to make this blog and quite relevant to what's goin' on right now to me. hahaha! I've been constantly asking God to give me signs whenever I will be making decisions that may have an effect in my life. Surely He never fails to give me one just like what is stated in the quote above. Indeed one should ask for a sign that is something extraordinary to make it a real sign that God gave you. Thankfully, he never fails me. There a lots of signs He gave me already. There are signs that speaks up to me not to get sad and bring back the happy mood in me. There are other signs which would make me choose a certain path instead of the other.
There's this one sign that made me have mixed emotions. Such sign I'm asking would affect the one normal routine of my life right now: GOING TO WORK. Most of my friends especially my bestest friends already knew how I truly hate what's goin' on at work. I asked Him 5 signs just to make sure that it would be fine to give this up or not. After I asked for this, 4 signs suddenly showed up week after week. I immediately prayed and told Him that it was a bit fast and I'm a bit shocked with what's goin' on. And so the fifth and last sign almost came but then it was halted for some unknown reason. "I don't know if I'll be thanking you or not for not making the fifth sign possible right now cause I really don't know what would I truly feel about it" is the line that I said to Him when the fifth sign didn't came.
Bottomline of all these stuffs: It seems that I still don't have any lovelifes again because I'm asking for a sign if she's the right one or not and yet I haven't seen it. hahahaha! plus add the fact that I still have other matters in my mind which makes me not think about it for now. Anyway, if its true love then it would just come your way any time and any where just like what Shrek Forever After's message is pertaining.
"When we ask for a sign to God, we often wish for a burning bush or a face of God in the clouds or a chariot of flames crossing the street – we often wish for something grand... something undeniable that it overwhelms us that we cannot deny that it is indeed the sign. Something heaven delivered just for you. Something god-sent." --> from Lolo Karl's blog. ;)
Another quote that punched me to make this blog and quite relevant to what's goin' on right now to me. hahaha! I've been constantly asking God to give me signs whenever I will be making decisions that may have an effect in my life. Surely He never fails to give me one just like what is stated in the quote above. Indeed one should ask for a sign that is something extraordinary to make it a real sign that God gave you. Thankfully, he never fails me. There a lots of signs He gave me already. There are signs that speaks up to me not to get sad and bring back the happy mood in me. There are other signs which would make me choose a certain path instead of the other.
There's this one sign that made me have mixed emotions. Such sign I'm asking would affect the one normal routine of my life right now: GOING TO WORK. Most of my friends especially my bestest friends already knew how I truly hate what's goin' on at work. I asked Him 5 signs just to make sure that it would be fine to give this up or not. After I asked for this, 4 signs suddenly showed up week after week. I immediately prayed and told Him that it was a bit fast and I'm a bit shocked with what's goin' on. And so the fifth and last sign almost came but then it was halted for some unknown reason. "I don't know if I'll be thanking you or not for not making the fifth sign possible right now cause I really don't know what would I truly feel about it" is the line that I said to Him when the fifth sign didn't came.
Bottomline of all these stuffs: It seems that I still don't have any lovelifes again because I'm asking for a sign if she's the right one or not and yet I haven't seen it. hahahaha! plus add the fact that I still have other matters in my mind which makes me not think about it for now. Anyway, if its true love then it would just come your way any time and any where just like what Shrek Forever After's message is pertaining.
«GINPAO»
5/25/2010
Monday, May 24, 2010
Downing Words
"Ang sakit sakit pala lalo na kapag nanggaling sa inyo ang mga salitang iyan." An excerpt from the latest Teleserye in Kapamilya "Rosalka" which definitely struck me in the heart.
Sometimes it's a bit tiring already to make yourself worthy in their eye. Proving yourself to be good but then it would turn out as a failure. Indeed we must learn with these failure to be able to succeed but what if these failures just keeps on coming that it already dug your grave? Maybe this is how money truly affects the attitude of every person here on earth. It's just so hard to accept that proving your worth nowadays should always be seen PHYSICALLY. I just don't understand that having a car would mean that I can already stand on my own. They didn't even consider how I did grow as a man and learn life from the path I'm taking right now. "If only you know what's really going on!" is all I can say anytime and uttered just deep inside me. How would they see my improvement in different crafts if they don't even want to come or see it? It's also tiring to invite somebody who would only answer: "What can we get there if we're gonna watch that? Can we earn something from it?" They just see everything I do as worthless pieces and yet for me I consider it a treasure. I do feel like a beggar right now treasuring the bits of left overs that can be seen on the street, coins that is earned in every passers by yet other people see it as a trash.
It's also hard to keep everything within me. The persons I thought can help me turned to be another burden. Instead of using motivations to gain self-esteem again, downing words are being received from them. They would label you rebellious in what you're doing yet they don't even know what I'm truly seeking. Being too judgmental makes it even worse. If only I can say to them: "I'm looking for somebody who could really help me with the things I'm going through and I don't think that is a rebellious act. I'm seeking true happiness which you fail to give me. Physical things can't be considered as true happiness. They are just part of it!" A single statement is what I truly seek which I still don't hear from you and running the pessimistic blood you've made me obtain makes me think that I will not hear it forever.
Sometimes it's a bit tiring already to make yourself worthy in their eye. Proving yourself to be good but then it would turn out as a failure. Indeed we must learn with these failure to be able to succeed but what if these failures just keeps on coming that it already dug your grave? Maybe this is how money truly affects the attitude of every person here on earth. It's just so hard to accept that proving your worth nowadays should always be seen PHYSICALLY. I just don't understand that having a car would mean that I can already stand on my own. They didn't even consider how I did grow as a man and learn life from the path I'm taking right now. "If only you know what's really going on!" is all I can say anytime and uttered just deep inside me. How would they see my improvement in different crafts if they don't even want to come or see it? It's also tiring to invite somebody who would only answer: "What can we get there if we're gonna watch that? Can we earn something from it?" They just see everything I do as worthless pieces and yet for me I consider it a treasure. I do feel like a beggar right now treasuring the bits of left overs that can be seen on the street, coins that is earned in every passers by yet other people see it as a trash.
It's also hard to keep everything within me. The persons I thought can help me turned to be another burden. Instead of using motivations to gain self-esteem again, downing words are being received from them. They would label you rebellious in what you're doing yet they don't even know what I'm truly seeking. Being too judgmental makes it even worse. If only I can say to them: "I'm looking for somebody who could really help me with the things I'm going through and I don't think that is a rebellious act. I'm seeking true happiness which you fail to give me. Physical things can't be considered as true happiness. They are just part of it!" A single statement is what I truly seek which I still don't hear from you and running the pessimistic blood you've made me obtain makes me think that I will not hear it forever.
«GINPAO»
5/24/2010
Monday, May 17, 2010
Blackmails!
Blackmails! Sure thing it's a very messed up everything in this world. If you can't convince someone then using blackmails is an effective way of persuading people to do something that they don't want in the first place. It can be made directly or indirectly. When it is used directly, it's simply telling it to someone without hesitation. An example of such is: "If you don't do what I want then I'll just tell everybody your biggest secret of your life." On the other hand, doing it indirectly means that a use of subtexts is in place. It's like saying thank you verbally but deep those words tells a different meaning.
There are lots of blackmails I've been accepting just when I started reopening my mind to the world. It's just so hard to accept this fact but I need to move on and make my life happy just like what my commitment with the Lord that I need to Live My Fourth. For as long as I remember my commitment, such blackmails are just mere dusts that needs to be wiped out. Anyway, it's already a part of life and being a part of it means you just have to live with it. Going back, blackmails are quite irritating if you would about it. Sense of judgement is needed whether to bite to this or not. What needs to judged lies on the question: Would you gain something or learn something if I would do something just to get rid of this blackmail?" Also, what would be my loss if I don't do it? what would be its impact to me? Such questions are needed just to gauge whether or not it's alright to let blackmail affect your decision.
Each of us has free will and thus use this to make your decisions wisely. Make no regrets on whatever you choose so don't put a blame on whoever or whatever if the outcomes will be bad. As for me, I won't regret my decision for not comin' on a certain event just for the sake of the "PAASANG" stuff. hahaha. I don't see any effects of the paasang stuff so why would I be affected with such? Teamwork can't only be measured in outings. Performance with what you do and how you deal with others is much appropriate guidelines for teamwork.
«GINPAO»
5/17/2010
