Tuesday, December 29, 2009
Morning Homily
"Always welcome a new day with a smile"
That's what I've been hearing in most people I'm seeing in my everyday life. But one argument still exists in my mind whenever I hear such kind of words. Such arguments roots to several questions that even I can' t answer it fast. What if you woke up one day and you feel all alone, would you still smile? If yes, then why would you smile? Will smiling make anything better?
Morning Homily is my term for the things my mom and/or dad has been saying to me every morning. It never changed at all. Whatever they said yesterday, I will surely hear it the next day and the days to come by. All I can do is to shut my mouth cause I know it will end nowhere. If I would utter a word I would be blessed by the word boastful. For sure I would hear "Go to your f***kin' friends they love you right?". Instead of hearing that kind of words, I would rather choose to be silent cause I don't want any other people to be involved.
I've always been saying to myself: "How are you going to love something if you don't like the thing you are doing and at the same time there are persons whom you can't agree with? Despite of reaching out, you will still be treated as a total stranger. Filling the air with dark auras of doubts." Well, I've voiced it out three times already but then same words I've been hearing. "If you don't like it then just drop it already but make sure you won't ask for anything. Try to make money at home and I wish you could have one. You just don't know the feeling of being dumped by a father and starting with no money at all..." So instead of hearing it over and over again, I'd rather shut up. Even though my heart tells the answers to the arguments that have been repeatedly imposed but then it's much better to be silent than to be called an arrogant person. Such answer is "I know it already! Even if I still don't experience it cause I'm an open - minded person. I'm not an insensitive person to not feel it. Try hearing me out and open your heart and mind for sure you will understand what am I saying." They keep on saying that they already are open - minded but then they don't act like one. Still their views of being a parent that parents should always be superior is still at large.
All I can do is to pray and keep on believing that someday it's gonna change. Understanding is what is needed. Hoping that I would never wear a fake smile whenever I welcome a new day. Wishing that I would not be scared of waking up early morning because of the Morning Homily. Also to hear the words I'm eagerly wanting to hear for a long long time. I'm also thankful that I never feel alone cause I know He is always by my side and never leaves me alone.
That's what I've been hearing in most people I'm seeing in my everyday life. But one argument still exists in my mind whenever I hear such kind of words. Such arguments roots to several questions that even I can' t answer it fast. What if you woke up one day and you feel all alone, would you still smile? If yes, then why would you smile? Will smiling make anything better?
Morning Homily is my term for the things my mom and/or dad has been saying to me every morning. It never changed at all. Whatever they said yesterday, I will surely hear it the next day and the days to come by. All I can do is to shut my mouth cause I know it will end nowhere. If I would utter a word I would be blessed by the word boastful. For sure I would hear "Go to your f***kin' friends they love you right?". Instead of hearing that kind of words, I would rather choose to be silent cause I don't want any other people to be involved.
I've always been saying to myself: "How are you going to love something if you don't like the thing you are doing and at the same time there are persons whom you can't agree with? Despite of reaching out, you will still be treated as a total stranger. Filling the air with dark auras of doubts." Well, I've voiced it out three times already but then same words I've been hearing. "If you don't like it then just drop it already but make sure you won't ask for anything. Try to make money at home and I wish you could have one. You just don't know the feeling of being dumped by a father and starting with no money at all..." So instead of hearing it over and over again, I'd rather shut up. Even though my heart tells the answers to the arguments that have been repeatedly imposed but then it's much better to be silent than to be called an arrogant person. Such answer is "I know it already! Even if I still don't experience it cause I'm an open - minded person. I'm not an insensitive person to not feel it. Try hearing me out and open your heart and mind for sure you will understand what am I saying." They keep on saying that they already are open - minded but then they don't act like one. Still their views of being a parent that parents should always be superior is still at large.
All I can do is to pray and keep on believing that someday it's gonna change. Understanding is what is needed. Hoping that I would never wear a fake smile whenever I welcome a new day. Wishing that I would not be scared of waking up early morning because of the Morning Homily. Also to hear the words I'm eagerly wanting to hear for a long long time. I'm also thankful that I never feel alone cause I know He is always by my side and never leaves me alone.
«GINPAO»
12/29/2009
