Monday, January 3, 2011
The Great Pretender (My Year-ender blog)
Year 2010 has already passed and I consider myself this year as "The Great Pretender". I have been a great pretender all throughout the year in many aspects of my life and I just realized it last December 11, 2010. hahaha! Despite being the great pretender, this year is really fun and enjoyable. Whenever I feel so down, I always think about the small things that comes in my life which makes me turn the down thing to an up thing. Being able to wake up in the morning is something you should be thankful. Possessing talents you've discovered during your journey in your life is another thing. We should all make our life fun and enjoyable because of such small things (but for me this is already a BIG thing).
My year 2010 didn't start so well just as what my "Deja Vu" predicted. Lots of stress both family and work which makes it so hard for me to smile every morning. But I still find ways to smile once I wake up because everyday should start right even if you think about what will happen in the current day. "Dang! Just live in the present and don't dwell ahead of time!" These words keeps me from smiling whenever I wake up.
It's a very common tradition for me to check out my luck every start of the year through zodiac signs. This would uplift my expectations in the year and might as well set goals. In the past year, the zodiacs told me that I'll be lucky. Indeed! It's really right! I will show you how lucky I am and being the great pretender too! hahaha!
Here it is!
- Despite of all the stresses I had in the start of the year, I had a neutralizing factor and my outlet to release every stress I had. This is the acting workshop. I was also invited to participate in the Star Magic Fun Run which only a few would be given the privilege to join in that prestigious event (woaah! really? hahaha!) I also gained new friends and they get to know me since you need to be open with your co-actors/ co-workshoppers with what you really feel so that you could have a good chemistry with one another (of course it will be seen in the camera too!).
- The day of my birthday came. I pretended to be happy but then I'm not. So many things ran into my mind that time and it can't be helped. Of course! Nobody knew about me being sad because I'm a great pretender. I was sad cause of so many things. It's my first time to celebrate a birthday which was welcomed by stress at work (taking a leave on my special day was so freakin' hard to get!). My leave was granted but then almost everybody is not available on that day. It resorted to celebrating my birthday with another person with visitors whom I don't know and so many other things which also includes only having leche flan in substitute for a cake. boo! hahaha! so where's the lucky part? well! I've seen Maja Salvador passed just right infront of me! hahaha!
- Summer came! I attended so many workshops to enhance my talent and also serve as my outlet for all the stress. Acting workshop was done and we had our culminating activity. This is really a blessing in disguise because we had a chance to act with Ms. Meryll Soriano. really cool but super scary! hahaha! I even encountered one teacher in one of my workshops whom I really hated! super! why? EPAL! hahaha! enough said! :)) "I love being on stage and performing!" Such words keep me motivated to go through this EPAL! hahaha!
- BORA MODE! hahaha! no need for further details coz for sure it was FUN! hahaha!
- now my SUPER DUPER DOWN MODE! This happened during June, 2010! Experienced the baddest stress in work and I really bursted like a volcano erupting so violently. Just imagine me holding back the tears from falling down while walking inside SM MOA. I even rode a cab with no hesitation (I only have a lil' money left in my pocket/wallet that time) and then I cried so loud when I got home. My mom and dad scolded me for crying because there's a rule at home that we're not allowed to cry since we're now all grown up. Also, they were so furious because I'm crying coz of work. Luckily, they understood me and allowed me to resign. FINALLY! It's a blessing even if I'm so freakin' sad! Also, I get a chance to dance all day! Party all night! whatever happy things happened after then. I also get to practice other talents as well. One other thing also made me so down and I won't say it. hahaha! :P
- Other frustrations came even if I'm so happy about being free. It includes major decisions I need to make ( professional career VS what I really want). Also, I missed a big opportunity for me due to one very lame reason! I failed to wake up! Turning the tables around, I got a chance to serve in DWTL! A great experience and it's a GOOD STRESS! super! It's like for the first time in my life I enjoyed working even if I feel so dead tired.
- Here comes December! I accepted an offer and I prayed for something good. It really came! I have great colleagues here. This is the point where I also realized I'm a great pretender because of Kuya Pat! hahaha! :)) ALAM NA! :)) I also realized that He was so great that all of my buddies I had in Days does have a connection to me like knowing my tito who died just last year or knowing a great friend of mine. so cool! hahaha! :))
Now time to end my blog! I still need to study! hahaha! one thing I learned: I have a pretending heart and that make me so freakin' bad! hahaha! :))
«GINPAO»
1/03/2011
